I am not God, I know that. I have a mental illness that makes me think that I am God.
However, I am a believer. I believe in God, the Afterlife, and Judgment of Heaven. I believe in fairness.
Thus, I know I am acting in this manner because I am not normal.
Is this who I am?
I am not my illness. Alas, I have to accept the cards I was dealt with.
What lies beyond, I don't know.
Am I special? I like to think so. Everybody is special.
However, I want to put an end to this insidious illness. I want to move forward into a glorious future.
I realize that I might never be normal. Therefore I am ready to accept that I am a fighter of a lifelong battle.
I believe that with faith, I can fight this illness like any other illness; by letting the body heal itself.
The doctor herself didn't have faith in me. I have to prove to her that I can win.
Love is the answer.
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The way to not become crazy is to not entertain crazy thoughts. From now on no more esoteric thoughts.
Then again, thoughts are things. What I think is already real for me. That is the belief that I had been taught. Does it have to be different now? What will I become?
I am the fastest recovering mental patient according to my doctor. What she doesn't know is that I am also an Athlete Warrior. All I need to do is to persist and persevere.
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