My darlings Sarah and Els,
Wishing you the best of health.
This is a challenging week for me. I had been bingeing on carbs like a drug addict on a roll.
I think the binge is due to several factors. Part of it is because I start consuming sugar in a large amount again.
That however is not the root cause. I was slightly depressed. My dopamine level had depleted. That is obvious when I started to have nightmares last week. I had difficulty sleeping too. That prompted me to cut short my Water Only Fast to 11 days.
Now I cannot stop drinking the 3-in-1 coffee and eat sweet treats. The good news is, today the carbs creep had slowed down much.
I believe what I'm experiencing now is a temporary setback. Once I can calibrate my sleep, exercise, and diet again, I am back on the track to pursue my Vision Quest to run the 21 km Hill.
At present, my routine is a bit off. Primarily because I cannot sleep on time. Due to that, I cannot exercise in the morning and that leads to an erratic eating schedule.
Slowly I will calibrate my training all over again.
The dangerous thing that I fear the most is dark depression. It comes with despairing thoughts and a lack of motivation. Thank God, I only experience this symptom just a few times a year. However, if I am not careful it will lead to suicidal thoughts.
Very well then...
Love you always.
Sine Cera,
8/5/21
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