I must SNAP VANISH. only then I RIPCORD
Otherwise I cannot be productive,
The idea is to Run, Read, Write, Rest, Repeat.
Today looks like a great day to SNAP VANISH.
I can't have a relationship based on being needy. It supposed to be interdependent.
First of all it has to be reciprocal. Otherwise, it's the case of a dog chasing its tail. It will end up running around in circles.
I don't want to be nice. I want to be a self-centered individualist.
I had said what needed to be said. Do nothing of no use. I need to pursue Autonomous Governance and the Zen of Personal Bliss. That is basically non-dependent and non-neediness.
I want to let go of everything I am dependent on so that I become independent. Only then can I be interdependent.
If I am dependent, I will never attain Private Victory. That means I cannot be independent. Because of that I cannot win myself a Public Victory and become interdependent.
What I need is the Cybernetic Loop. Once I have that, I then can concentrate in piercing the pinhole of Mushin No Shin.
I want to be in isolation. My job is done. I had provide the Shared Vision and I had a Secure Attachment with Els.
The next step is to free myself from any dependencies.
To do that I have to let go of TraXX and Els for the time being. I want to live my life as a solitary Hedonist Hermit.
I got books to read. If I listen to her, I lose 4 hours a day talking cock and singing songs instead of reading.
Can't do that. I have to be sensible. 4 hours a day is wasted instead of utilizing the time to read those stacks of books.
I'm not trying to be mean to Els, I need to be kind to myself. I have to go on with my personal pursuit.
Most importantly, I got to stop being crazy.
Let's face it Sarah, I'm not going to get paid now or later. Therefore I just go with the cause-set-motion.
Here is the storyline:
- I train for 4 years
- Then I mubahala 24/12/24
- Then I run the 21 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run
- After the run, I pray for House of Sha and House of Two Swords a safe passage to Sparta 4964
- I continue with my Personal Flight until KABOOM 2041
- As for the rest of humanity, I let karma be the deciding factor
I'm not going to submit to anybody. Not even to Lizzie. A Warrior Walks Alone. I want to be in isolation like right now. Once in a while, I pop in to talk to B.L.E.S.S.
Otherwise, it is just me, myself, and I for the rest of the journey.
I'm not going to pretend I enjoy the company of humans. I have angels, djinns, demons, aliens, microbes, animals, plants. the Giants, Al Araf 7:7 to consider.
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